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How I waged war on the enemy that is me. June 9, 2008

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alternate title:  Midlife crisis or nuthouse?

A lot has gone down these past two years.  Sadness, stress, happiness, stress, sadness, grief, sadness, stress and more sadness.

I’m my own worst enemy – always have been.  Luckily I broke out.  It happened last year. After spending a inordinate amount of time mourning and feeling sorry for myself I realized that life is what you make it.  As I drown in my own self-pity and bottles of tequila I realized that it was make or break for me.

Being the overachiever that I am – I chose to make it.  I quickly made decisions, shed hundreds of pounds of crap, moved the rest in to storage and began life anew.  Now some of this worked – and some did not.  But I’m happy. 

So life changed….and then changed dramatically again.